Abysmal Thoughts

Ouch!

I am really hurting something serious right now =[….

Cardiectomy

When will this shit stop hurting SO much?!

Conscious vs. Sub-Conscious

I’m a logical and rational person. When I have a problem, I want it solved. As soon as possible. The way I do that is by figuring out the exact cause and eradicating it.

But this is one of the hardest puzzles I’ve faced yet. I cannot figure out the cause for the way I’m acting and have been acting. I’ve thought it was this, then that, or maybe this, but what about that?!

I know I’m angry, I’m upset, I’m bitter, I’m depressed, heartbroken, and hurt. There are also trust issues, burned bridges being reconstructed, demolished walls re-erecting, and feelings getting hurt.

I know the simple reason is because of me trying to protect myself due to us no longer being together and trying to go our separate ways. But I’ve never been a simple person and I’m not about to settle for it now.

I want to figure out the exact cause of these things. That way I can present them to You and we can come up with a logical and rational solution. That way we can possibly get through this without me causing us to become complete strangers….

I'm no saint, I have flaws, too.♥: And Sometimes:

frombrittneewithlove:

Sometimes, things don’t happen how you imagine they would. How a world of happiness can sometimes reach a standstill, or cease to exist. We live in a world where we place people on these pedestals, high above their truest value and make them the center of our world. We ultimately present people…

I Hate Change

And shit sure is different….

Nocturnal

Ugh. I’m reverting back to going to bed later and later. I need to jump on top of this habit now, before it gets too late/bad. As for now, I’ma go shower then jump in bed…naked =)

Ayuda Me!

How do you…just simply…let go, when you want to, so desperately, hang on?!